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Tuesday, January 9th, 2007
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3:06 pm - to be continued..
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I'm not quite sure if it's clicked with me yet that Stephanie is gone. I mean.. there are times when I get emotional, but I know it's just the situation. Driving down the road listening to Jeremy Camp crying, or passing the site for the first time and not being able to keep a steady speed because my foot and leg are shaking uncontrollably. Do I cry because I was having a moment with myself. Do I shake because that's what you do?
Sunday I went to church prepared to cry and rejoice both. Sad thing is, I couldn't do either. It just didn't fit. After church everyone was their normal selves while we ate. Cracking the usual jokes, we carried on life like another Sunday afternoon, but it just wasn’t the same. We all seemed at a loss of in some way or another. I think a few of us were emotionally lost and drained at everything that has been happening, not only with Stephanie, but with Elizabet and her family also.
At visitation I was able to contain myself at moments, but other times when I saw others crying I couldn't help but get emotional. I'm not the only one who gets emotional for no reason at the sight of others tears. I got there, and ran into Whitney. It was obvious that she was a little sickened by what she had seen inside, and it almost detoured me from even going in. It was reassuring when I walked through the chapel doors and saw parts of the youth group on the pews. Chris, of course, stood out to me the most. I know he's struggling, and that’s something I've never seen him do. Standing in line to see her was where I was trying to gather everything and put the pieces of what was going on together. It just hadn't seemed real up until that point. All that is being said or printed is almost just like rumors and tabloids. All I've been able to tell myself is that it is not true. I had cried, but it just didn't make sense. Once I got closer to the casket and I could start to see the outline of her body I was at a loss for everything. I couldn't think, feel, cry. The only thing i had going for me was my physical presence. The closer I got to the coffin and the better I could see her, it kind of made me sick to my stomach. Especially looking at the body and knowing that that wasn't her face. She looked just like a wax figure, still beautiful. It just wasn't her typical self. That's the main reason why I just didn't get it that night. It seemed so fake and so un-stephy like that it just seemed like a well scripted, fantastically made-up, and well acted play.
It basically sucked not knowing what to say to her mom and sister except for "Hey." I have a hard time saying typical things like "I'll be praying for you," "she was one of a kind," or especially "I'm sorry." I think they understood that. I hope they did at least. I steered away before i got the to side of the room that Cam was on mostly because he of all people I wanted to say something to, but I didn't want to prove that I was at a loss for words when I tried to hug or speak to him. I must say this is really unreal and touching. Although a lot of people make out like they didn’t even know who Steph was; It's also really eye-opening to see how many people thought the world of her and how many lives she touched just by doing nothing she found out of the ordinary.
More has set in with me today. I walked into church and for the first time it wasn't the incredibly warm and happy atmosphere that I have always found there. I don't want to sound cliché, but it was just dead. No one had life, most were still having a hard time dealing with their emotions. I had never seen fear or tears in some of my classmates eyes. At least not until today. We're human and they have emotions too was what was running through my mind. It may be sad that I loss like this is another thing that will form a bond within part of the student body. I hope at least.
After sitting there for awhile, Chris and I decided to go and see her one last time. This tie I could finally look at her, and examine her features. Her hands, her class ring, the roses she held, the nose that did not match the nose I have seen her with since the day I met her, her body filled brown hair, and the clothes that I don't think she would have ever worn unless she was forced to. I still couldn't see it. All it was to me is just an act and somewhat of a dream. I felt someone come up behind me, so I figured it would be a good time to just take a last glimpse at this girl who has and is going to change so many lives( mine included) and start coming to the realization that she's not going to be there anymore.
I went back to my seat and started observing everything going on around me in attempt to take it in the moment. Listening to Pastor Brian play what I call "pick a random key and hope it sounds good" method of playing I felt more at home and it sort of added to the typicality and comfort I found because they did hold it at Celebration. I could see out into the hallway in front of the kitchen and fellowship hall through the doors, and there I saw Cam. I felt so terrible at that point. I just watched him, and could tell that he was definitely a novice along with everyone else in the building pretty much. He would wipe his eyes and hug the ones around him, and after he had hugged everyone twice a man fixed his tie and I could see from the other side of the sanctuary as he took a big breath of what I'm guessing was fear and uncertainty. Something clicked with me then. I'm not sure what because I'm still trying to figure that out. I just felt something inside of me change and begin to hurt for him.
More people flooded into the sanctuary as 11:00 got closer. Some familiar faces, although most were total strangers. It felt good coming from a friend's viewpoint seeing all of these people that cared for this girl, and that had been touched by her or the tragedy of it all. The very strange couple that always comes into side street with their daughter and sit in the very first booth started the ceremony (little did I know up until this day that they had anything to do with Hicks). My heart dropped as I watched the family enter the sanctuary. I guess the fact that I'm a hopeless romantic and automatically center my attention on the love story that is occurring. Entering the door and down the left of the church comes Stephanie's mom and step father, her sister and her boyfriend, and I'm guessing her brother and his girlfriend; each couple's hands laced with their other. Then in comes cam, though his fingers are laced with his mom's instead of the love of his life, my heart broke for him. As services began and I looked at the program type things that were handed out at the door it was still slightly unreal. I felt like I was back in the school gym sitting through another SADD club funeral. Another face in a picture shown and another casket in front of a grieving family. I tried to get it, but I just couldn't. This girl I met at a pool party in 4th grade that let me have Brian while she had AJ of the back street boys even though she wanted Brian just as well is now grown up a little more into a beautiful young lady inside and out.. is lifeless, limp, pale in a state that isn't sleeping its just non existent in a wooden coffin.
Bobby spoke words that really did nothing but churn inside of me which were followed by "Who am I" Finally, I had one sort of breakthrough. For the past week I have been trying to have a moment like the one that I had when I was listening to Mark sing those words again. For once, I finally got what they meant. The just fit this situation to its entirety. I’ve sang those words by heart so many times there is no reason to even say I’ve lost count. Until that moment, staring at the crack between the ceiling and the wall, I was able to understand the concept of life is only equal to a breath of eternity. I kept thinking about that topic and getting more emotional as the song played on, but another Reaction Weekend Experience showed itself to be one of the most life changing things I’ve ever done. Even though this wasn’t the last bit of quality time I spent Stephanie these are the ones that replay the most in my head. I remember the last morning we were there as we woke up and stole the CD player out of the dining hall and plugged it in and we all danced around the bunks together and sang drops of Jupiter at the top of our lungs. Then later her and Amber decided to switch out Cds and listen to smile empty soul. I’m pretty sure if I remember this correctly she said that she wanted one of those songs played at her funeral (which didn’t get played ), I guess that would explain why she said what she did. She said ending in a laugh, “I don’t want people do cry at my funeral. I want them to be happy and smiling. I mean, I’ll be gone and they’ll be happy I’m out of their hair.” I was able to smile because I knew it was the right thing to do.
As the services went on and my heart broke more as beautiful stories were told by her step-dad’s brother. He hit the nail on the head when he mentioned her smile, and all of her other amazing characteristics. It made me feel better that others saw some of the same things I have. Another obviously prominent moment was Bobby ‘s words. I don’t really know how to explain them other than the fact that they were of pure admiration for his step-sister which added a bit of note to just the role that he plays now and she plays in his life.
Finally, a larger step of realization came. As we were asked to stand, and they rolled her out of the sanctuary. She was in there. She is dead. She will never be there to save me from my retarded moments. She will never be there again to be able to hug the living mess out of, just to hear what quirky little thing she had to say in response. She was never there to laugh or to laugh at. That smile will never be seen again..
It hit me. That’s what all of this is about.. For a girl that had so much pain and heartache. For the girl that has my utmost admiration because she overcame it all and had found what I saw to be an indescribable happiness that some will never find. At least she made it to the top of the mountain she had always talked about struggling with. I started looking around the church again and saw faces that I automatically associate with Stephanie. I saw CD and all I could think about was night after night when she would bring him to RSM. She cared so much for him not only for his salvation but just for his well being. She was so caring and protective over him. I just wonder what he is thinking now, and if he’s able to take it. The exiting family crossed my view of him and it was settling in a little more as I thought that this baby that had grown up over 17 years in to the beautiful girl that never judged a soul without reason that was always so caring, is now the same piece of what seems to be a wax figure in that coffin, that is fixing to be placed into the ground. I for the first time in my life, even after all the funerals and visitations I’ve attended, understood the difference between a person and a body. I realized we weren’t burring that girl, we were just putting that coffin with what seems to be here inside in a little niche of dirt in a cemetery at a church I’d never heard of before.
Once our row was released, I know I should’ve been more at peace, but it was then that the greatest epiphany I had had thus far occurred. I realized that we have all been awing at a body, and that isn’t even her. I see it as if we should be awing over a spirit more so than the skin and bone that we see visually in our memory. As I put a little more thought into what I was comprehending a little more understanding came, the biggest chunk came. Up until this point little pieces has been unraveling. Now, I got the grasp of everything except the facts that can only come with the progression of time. Everything that is, but the fact that she is no more. I finally had tears that I knew weren’t caused by the beauty of a song, art of a poem, or the sympathy of myself to others tears and grieving. I felt it or at least part of it. As I sit here all the pieces still are not together. All that’s left are the pieces of realization that only time can carve. It felt good to finally have somewhat of a peace of mind that I got at that moment.
Thus, as I walked out of the church things were officially started to set in completely. It seemed at the time like everything finally came together, but now looking back I still had not completely realized the true degree of what majestic story is coming to an end yet an even more multiple sets of incredible stories that are about to begin. I finally first hand was witnessing what I’ve heard from past stories of the same degree; I was living what others had always told me about. I mean, I know what’s going on, but it’s not real yet.
Once we were able to get into the car to go to the gravesite a slight seriousness was lifted once we turned onto highway 117 to get to the church. Things felt more real than sitting in, as I said before, a SADD club ceremony. We were in a line of cars headed to a hole in the ground that we’re putting the body that I used to enjoy hugging and dancing with when it was filled with life. The scenery on the way was gorgeous considering the recent weather and the horrible winter season and how hideous it makes the trees look. All I could think was about how at least her body’s last glimpse at the world was as breathtaking as it could even be expected.
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| Friday, October 27th, 2006
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9:28 am
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| 45 of the most random things you probably never needed to know about someone | | whats your name spelt backwards?: | nageM | | What did you do last night?: | hung out with Jon because he leaves again in a few days :( | | The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?: | program.. iwatermark - but last thing downloaded period.. was a song | | Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?: | yes | | Last time you swam in a pool?: | this summer. | | What are you wearing?: | victoria's secret shirt, lei jeans,and sperrys | | How many cars have you owned?: | one | | Type of music you dislike most?: | reggae | | Are you registered to vote?: | nope | | Do you have cable?: | yes | | What kind of computer do you use?: | HP | | Ever made a prank phone call?: | no | | You like anyone right now?: | yes, I like him.. alot | | Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: | yes, most deffinately | | Furthest place you ever traveled?: | West Virginia | | What's your favorite comic strip?: | family circus | | Do u know all the words to the national anthem?: | yes | | Shower, morning or night?: | either.. depends on what i'm doing at night as to if i take it then or wait | | Best movie you've seen in the past month?: | Pearl Harbor | | Favorite pizza toppings?: | mushrooms, sundried tomatoes, bell peppers, oinions | | Chips or popcorn?: | chips (and salsa) | | What cell phone provider do you have?: | Cingular | | Have you ever smoked peanut shells?: | no | | Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?: | yes | | Orange Juice or apple?: | apple! | | Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?: | Matt | | favorite chocolate bar?: | BabyRuth | | Who is your longest friend and how long?: | JenniferShiflett, Kindergarten | | Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?: | this summer | | Have you ever won a trophy?: | yes, quite few | | Favorite arcade game?: | wackamole | | Ever ordered from an infomercial?: | yea | | Sprite or 7-UP?: | sprite | | Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?: | yea | | Last thing you bought at Walgreens?: | shampoo | | Ever thrown up in public?: | yea | | Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?: | true love.. | | Do you believe in love at first sight?: | absolutely not | | SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?: | jimmy | | Did you have long hair as a young kid?: | yes, still do | | What message is on your voicemail machine?: | "Its Megan. You know what to do" | | Where would you like to go right now?: | Athens | | Whats the name of your pet?: | Bob, the bob cat looking cat, and Buddy, the greatest dog in the world :) | | What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?: | one is an AE satchel, the other is a cordaroy jansport | | What do you think about most?: | currently.. chad | Take this survey | Find more surveys
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| Monday, October 23rd, 2006
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9:17 am
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| A LiTTLE BiT OF EVERYTHiNG ABOUT ME<3 | | THE BASiCS<3 | | Name: | Megan! | | Nicknames: | Meggy, Megster, Mighty Mighty Megan, McMuffin, Kid | | Birthday: | April 27th, 1989 | | Gender: | female | | Hair: | brown | | Eyes: | green | | Height: | 5'4 | | Zodiac Sign: | tarus | | Status: | Taken by my boo chad :p | | Graduation Year: | 2007 | | FAVORiTES<3 | | Movie: | The notebook, emporer's new groove, the grinch, man in the
moon, sweet home alabama, walk the line, tuck everlasting | | TV Show: | wild 'n out, bridezillas.. i hate tv incase you didn't know | | Book: | anything by nicholas sparks, rim walkers, tuck everlasting,
to kill a mockingbird, esperenza rising | | Color: | blue, yellow, limegreen | | Food: | steak (ribeye), fajitas, mushrooms, oinion rings from the varsity,
tomatoes and macaronie, potato soup, salsa :) | | Drink(Non-Alcoholic): | sprite add strawberry.. | | Drink(Alcoholic): | I don't have one | | Scent: | Abercrombie Fierce, Hollister, Tommy Hilfigure | | Actor: | johnny depp (not based on looks), ben afleck, josh hartnett | | Actress: | reese witherspoon | | Sport: | hide and seek :) - i'm thinking seriously about trying out for
tennis.. I enjoy football and baseball | | Cartoon Character: | Hello Kitty | | Store: | Wet Seal, American Eagle, Hollister, Macys, Junkman's, Kohls,
target, delias, alloy, the list goes on and on.. | | City: | Hartwell | | Vacation Spot: | Cades Cove.. so basically the mountains | | Band: | Edwin McCain, Goo Goo Dolls, Grayson Hill, Modern Skirts,
Anberlin, Corey Smith, Brantley Gilbert | | Song: | "The Dance" - Garth Brooks, "A lifetime" - Better than Ezra,
"Desperately wanting" - better than ezra, "Champagne High"
-Sister Hazel, there's a long list :) | | Football Team: | UGa I suppose | | Basketball Team: | I don't care | | Baseball Team: | Braves | | NCAA Team: | I don't carrrrre | | Animal: | Mouse, dog | | Magazine: | Flag Pole | | Candy: | airheads? | | Restaurant: | Chilis, Inokos, Johnny's pizzaria in Austell | | Jewelry: | my diamond ring.. I never take it off | | Day of the Week: | Fridays usually.. or any day i don't have to work | | Ice Cream Flavor: | moosetracks | | Number: | 15 | | PEOPLE<3 | | Your Best Friend: | Holly | | Your Shoulder to Cry on: | Chad seems to have been there when I needed him "cry dang it!" | | Do You Have More Girl or Guy Friends: | guys | | Who do You Consider a Sister: | Randi, Kaelan | | Who do You Consider a Brother: | Austin, Jon | | Who Knows All Your Secrets: | Holly | | Do You Have An Enemy: | eh.. a few :) | | Boyfriend or Girlfriend: | We sometimes call him Chad | | Do You Like Someone: | yessuh | | HAVE YOU EVER<3 | | Been in a Car Wreck: | yes.. | | Been Arrested: | not lately | | Broken the Law: | yep | | Been Skinny Dipping: | no | | Been in Love: | yes | | Smoked: | no I don't want to | | Drank: | I've tasted alcohol.. yes | | Been High: | pretty much from the dentist | | Smoked Pot: | nope, don't care to | | Been Kicked Out of School: | no | | Skipped School: | yea | | Failed a Class: | no | | Broken a Bone: | no | | Shoplifted: | nope | | Tried to Intentionally Hurt Someone: | yes | | Fell Asleep in Class: | not like in the middle of doing something, no | | Been in a Fight: | yea | | Been Out of the US: | nope | | Had Surgery: | just tubes in my ear.. nothing serious | | Spent the Night in the Hospital: | nope | | Snuck Out of Your House: | yea, not to go anywhere though | | Lied to Your Parents: | yea | | Showered at Someone of the Opposite Sex's House: | no | | Saw Someone Die: | seen someone shortly after dieing.. yes | | Had a Near-Death Experience: | more than once | | Liked Someone Who Didn't Like You Back: | of course | | Had a Broken Heart: | yes | | Broke Someones Heart: | i believe so | | Cried Over The Opposite Sex: | oh yes, most deff | | Played a Game Requiring the Removal of Clothing: | not that I remember | | Laughed Until You Cried: | yes | | Slept Under The Stars: | yepyep | | Mooned or Flashed Someone: | mooned | | Killed an Animal: | squirell | | Prank Called Someone: | no | | Slept in the Same Bed as the Opposite Sex: | other than relatives.. no | | YOUR FiRSTS<3 | | Boyfriend/Girlfriend: | Mickey Molina :p - 5th grade! | | Kiss: | Daniel Hix | | Car: | Jenna the Jetta | | Trip Out of Your State: | i'm sure south carolina | | Job: | sidestreet.. and i'm still there | | School: | Falling Creek Elem. | | Slowdance: | I don't remember | | Trip to a Beach: | Beaufort South Carolina | | Celeb Crush: | no clue | | Best Friend: | Jennifer Shiflette and I in 1st? grade | | Pet: | spook the stupid cat | | True Love: | lets not talk about it | | LASTS<3 | | Time You Were Out of Your State: | Anderson.. exact date, i don't know | | Slowdance: | Bobby.. | | Movie You Saw at the Theater..(With Who): | Taledega Nights. Bobby Seymour | | Person You Talked to on the Phone: | Chad | | Song You Heard: | Blind - Lifehouse | | Broken Heart: | ..not too long ago | | Thing You Ate: | fajita qesidialla | | Thing You Drank: | sprite | | Person You Hugged: | Matt Dyal | | Shower: | this morning | | Show You Watched on TV: | trash talkers | | Trip to a Mall: | Homecoming dress shopping.. with holly | Take this survey | Find more surveys
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| Thursday, October 19th, 2006
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1:51 pm
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Last night was amazing. That basically summed it up, other than the fact that i hate that I ended it so soon.
After I left work, I went to hartwell and met chad. So as always, we meet up at walmart. It was great just to see him again, and know that we are something. As for what, is the question. We left there to go to old 29, but I didn't feel like riding all the way to the end, so we stopped at Gum Branch.
We sat out there forever on his tailgate. Basically the whole time, we just cuddled. I'd lay in his lap and he'd have his arms around me. He'd pick me up. You can just see in the way he acts that he's really fallen for me and likes me for me. I love it. He treats me great. We laid in th bed of his truck and I laid on his shoulder and we talked and watched clouds.
Yet again, one of my storybook moments.
I really really enjoy chad's company. He made fun of how serious I can be sometimes, and we just hung out. I mean.. gah, how sweet. Laying in the bed of his truck next to him talking watching clouds laughing and just been two happy teenagers.
He made the fact about me always walking away from him when he'd say something sarcastically mean. I'd walk away, and he'd ask me to come back. I'd tell him no, and he'd come walking over. You want me to chase you don't you. Well I will.. incinuating him chasing me as a girlfriend. It was really like one of those eye opening moments where you smile and kiss the living daylights out of him. I know we'll date. I'm happy about that, and I cannot wait until he asks me to be his girlfriend. I'm pretty sure I'll say yes in a heartbeat. Right now Jon is completley like done with in my mind. I'm tired of whatever games he's trying to play. I'm through with it. He's so two faced it seems, or he just has no intrest on any level with me. Quite frankly, I do not care! :) I'm falling for chad. Which I don't htink is safe, because I sort of miss Bobby. I mean, I only miss him taking me on dates, and that picture. Gah, that picture of us. Is the perfect picture. I mean, I want to take the same picture with chad just because I am that in love with the picture. I think thats the main reason I hang onto Bobby, because I just want to use that adorable picture of the two of us dancing.. Chad takes awful pictures, but that just adds to the list of his little quirks (good and bad). He proves to me that he wants me just by the things he says and does. Such as quitting things I told him I didn't like and not really saying "i wont date you because of this" but really just telling him how bad that was and how much it really bothres me. So, it makes me really impressed to know that he'd do something like that like quit for me, and hopefully sticking to waht he says. I know he'd quit. Everyone is saying he has.. everyone says he's perfect for me. Because we're both hard asses, but softys when when it comes to love. :)
so yay.. may this be a keeper
cheers!
l8r dayz -Megan
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1:51 pm
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Last night was amazing. That basically summed it up, other than the fact that i hate that I ended it so soon.
After I left work, I went to hartwell and met chad. So as always, we meet up at walmart. It was great just to see him again, and know that we are something. As for what, is the question. We left there to go to old 29, but I didn't feel like riding all the way to the end, so we stopped at Gum Branch.
We sat out there forever on his tailgate. Basically the whole time, we just cuddled. I'd lay in his lap and he'd have his arms around me. He'd pick me up. You can just see in the way he acts that he's really fallen for me and likes me for me. I love it. He treats me great. We laid in th bed of his truck and I laid on his shoulder and we talked and watched clouds.
Yet again, one of my storybook moments.
I really really enjoy chad's company. He made fun of how serious I can be sometimes, and we just hung out. I mean.. gah, how sweet. Laying in the bed of his truck next to him talking watching clouds laughing and just been two happy teenagers.
He made the fact about me always walking away from him when he'd say something sarcastically mean. I'd walk away, and he'd ask me to come back. I'd tell him no, and he'd come walking over. You want me to chase you don't you. Well I will.. incinuating him chasing me as a girlfriend. It was really like one of those eye opening moments where you smile and kiss the living daylights out of him. I know we'll date. I'm happy about that, and I cannot wait until he asks me to be his girlfriend. I'm pretty sure I'll say yes in a heartbeat. Right now Jon is completley like done with in my mind. I'm tired of whatever games he's trying to play. I'm through with it. He's so two faced it seems, or he just has no intrest on any level with me. Quite frankly, I do not care! :) I'm falling for chad. Which I don't htink is safe, because I sort of miss Bobby. I mean, I only miss him taking me on dates, and that picture. Gah, that picture of us. Is the perfect picture. I mean, I want to take the same picture with chad just because I am that in love with the picture. I think thats the main reason I hang onto Bobby, because I just want to use that adorable picture of the two of us dancing.. Chad takes awful pictures, but that just adds to the list of his little quirks (good and bad). He proves to me that he wants me just by the things he says and does. Such as quitting things I told him I didn't like and not really saying "i wont date you because of this" but really just telling him how bad that was and how much it really bothres me. So, it makes me really impressed to know that he'd do something like that like quit for me, and hopefully sticking to waht he says. I know he'd quit. Everyone is saying he has.. everyone says he's perfect for me. Because we're both hard asses, but softys when when it comes to love. :)
so yay.. may this be a keeper
cheers!
l8r dayz -Megan
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| Tuesday, October 17th, 2006
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2:48 pm
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| Christmas Time | | Stats | | What are your favorite colors?: | Blue, Yellow, Lime Green | | What colors do you despise?: | tan? 70's blue, some shades of orange | | What are your favorite kinds of candy?: | laffy taffy, chewy jolly ranchers, gummy worms, airheads | | What kinds of candy do you despise?: | coconut stuff, gum drops | | Who are your favorite bands?: | Anberlin, Goo Goo Dolls, Edwin McCain, Better than Ezra, Corey Smith, Brantley Gilbert, The Modern Skirts, lifehouse, Gym Class Heroes | | What bands do you hate?: | mofro, marilyn manson, iron maiden | | What are your favorite types of music?: | acoustic, rock, alt rock, country, pretty much anything | | What are your least favorite types of music?: | Reggae and Funk | | What is your hat size?: | 6 3/4 | | What is your ring size?: | 4 1/2?? | | What is your shoe size?: | depends on the shoe.. typically 6 | | What is your t-shirt size?: | Small | | What is your pants size?: | 1 | | Preferences | | Do you like t-shirts with funny pictures and phrases?: | not really.. depends on what it says | | Do you like ties?: | I don't wear them personally.. so no | | Do you like buttons, stickers, and patches?: | sometimes | | Do you like body jewelry and have any piercings?: | no | | Do you like getting a Cd or getting a gift card to the store?: | giftcards | | Do you like your present to be a surprise or something you asked for?: | surprise that is something I like | | Do you like random things that relate to in jokes?: | inside jokes | | Do you like things that are just completely random?: | humm no | | It's up to you. | | What stores would you want gift cards to?: | Hollister, American Eagle, Wetseal, Aeropostal, Kohls, Macys, Jewlry Stores, or Walmart is always very useful | | What bands would you want music by?: | Anberlin, | | What type of jewelry would you want?: | Emily Ray,  , or a silver Heart toggle link necklace | | What kind of clothes would you want?: | anything from the stores i like | | What exactly do you want? | | In: | Cd player with Ipod interface for Jenna | | no: | A system (just a 10 would be nice).. Alpine or Sony | | specific: | Bose Soundock Digital music system | | order,: | Emily Ray Jewlry.. simple patterns. Any colors I would apprieciate | | list: | Clothes from any of the stores I like. Hoodies, sweaters, hats | | everything: | touchup pain job for Jenna | | you: | Adobe Photoshop software | | could: | laptop | | ever: | sentimental things | | want: | concert tickets | | to: | Bath and Body Works Jazz | | get: | | | as a: | | | present: | | | for: | | | Christmas.: | | Take this survey | Find more surveys
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| Tuesday, September 26th, 2006
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1:45 pm - First day of College
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Last night was a lot of fun. Holly and I went to Anderson, of course stopping in hartwell along the way, and found my homecoming dress. It is beautiful
bobby and I are done
I want to take reid to homecoming
I had my first day of college, which was cool. SEeing as I knew everyone in there practically. My books were expensive, but ohwell Iguess?
I completely and thoroughly hate my keyboard. So thats why i'm not typing very much, b/c the buttons are really hard to press down.
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| Wednesday, August 9th, 2006
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2:08 pm - Editorial.
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MySpace: The average person’s Laguna Beach
Are you guilty of leaving places like church early just to check your MySpace, knowing someone’s name you’ve never met before when you cross paths with them at a fast food place, or even worse using the phrase “He/she is hotter on MySpace”? Admit it, anyone and everyone who has access to the internet has a MySpace account, or has at least visited the website once in their surfing adventures. My guess would be, that at over half (if not all) of these people are what I would like to call “addicted to MySpace’. I know am a prime example of this addiction along with another large percentage of your student body. .
I’m sure everyone updates themselves on the latest drama every night going online and reading comments, the latest blog entries, those pesky over posted bulletins, and the infamous top 8 standings. These updates include what was for lunch, who is dating who, or what happened that that secret after party, who did what on their summer vacation, and what pranks were pulled that weekend.
I have not decided yet weather it is pathetic or absolutely crazy having conversations about a website or posing for pictures saying “This picture is for MySpace.” It is pathetic though, when you know someone else’s personal business before they do. Such as friends not speaking, when one just thinks the other is too busy for her. Although, in reality her best friend is just mad at her and is avoiding her at all costs..
MySpace is the start and center of a lot of drama that would not have been caused any other way. Many parents check their teen’s spaces hourly, which is why I wonder if a large percentage of groundings given lately are the spawn of nasty comments or inappropriate “about me” sections. Many Boyfriends have broken up with their girlfriends because the ex-boyfriend is leaving flirtatious comments. My personal favorite item of drama though would be the breaking up of a band. This breakup leads to a huge dispute via comments and blogs. After what could have been a 20 page essay on “Why I hate you and think you suck” After about 3 days and a couple interventions the ex band members made up, or either they got tired of reading the massive returned messages each other was getting.
One of my favorite MySpace stories that I started to mention earlier would have to be when I was eating dinner before a concert with some friends of mine from Hartwell. I arrived later than the rest of the group I was eating with. I sit down in one of the two booths that we sitting in at Dairy Queen. As I’m sitting there enjoying my milkshake with 3 friends and a total stranger who had been looking at me like he was pondering the meaning of life; I was suddenly lunged at and declared that “Oh My Gosh! You’re that girl from MySpace! Megan? Mighty Mighty Megan!” I wasn’t really scared or anything when he said that. I was more
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| Tuesday, August 8th, 2006
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| Of Your Friends... | | List 10 Of Your Friends (Any Gender) Below | | 1.: | Holly Darracott | | 2.: | Dustin Ingram | | 3.: | Randi Rowland | | 4.: | Reid Jones | | 5.: | Kaelan Woodall | | 6.: | Carrie Dixon | | 7.: | Zeke Sayer | | 8.: | Justin Vickery | | 9.: | Courtney Kirby | | 10.: | Austin Powell | | Now Answer The Questions Below Referring To The Friends You Listed Above. | | How long have you known 1?: | since 1st grade | | Have you been to 8's house?: | yea | | Do you like 6?: | she's rad | | Are 4 and 10 friends?: | no | | Have you been to 3's house?: | yes.. but not her new apartment | | Would you ever live with 5?: | yea.. we'd be wild together | | When was the last time you talked to 4?: | 12 hours ago | | Would 1 and 6 make a good couple?: | lol.. um no | | How about 8 and 10?: | nah | | Have you ever dreamt about 2?: | yes | | Have you ever slept with 9?: | no | | Is 7 attractive?: | not to me | | Do you love 4?: | yes | | Would you ever cuddle with 1?: | oh yes! ;) | | Would you ever kiss 3?: | no | | What do you like best about 6?: | she tags along on our adventures and brings along the rest of the gang | | Have you ever had a crush on 1, 3, 5, 7, or 9?: | no | | Do you ever wish you never met 3?: | no! | | How did you meet 5?: | We met in MS through Emily Miller | | Has 2 seen you naked?: | no | | Have you seen 2 naked?: | no | | Who is taller? 5 or 10?: | 10 | | Have you met 4's family?: | no | | Would you ever go out with 3?: | no | | Do you think 7 is funny?: | yes | | What about 6?: | yea | | Where was the last place you went with 1?: | Hartwell | | When was the last time you hung out with 2?: | Graduation Night | | Where do you want to take 3?: | To the format concert | | When do you want to see 4?: | in 3 months ;) | | Would 5 and 6 make a good couple?: | no | | Have 7 and 8 ever kissed?: | I wouldnt Doubt it | | Would 9 or 10 ever live together?: | doubt it | | Would you let 3 have your baby?: | uh no | | Have you ever told 1 a deep dark secret?: | yes | | Has 1 ever told you a secret?: | yes | | Would you runaway with 6?: | sure | | Who was the last person 9 kissed?: | not quite sure | | Who was the last person 7 hugged?: | Bean more than likely | | What word or phrase does 5 say alot?: | scew him | | Does 6 make you laugh?: | yea | | Does 2 ever annoy you?: | not really | | When did you last call 4?: | he usually calls me.. but that was a few weeks ago when i saw him | | Do you ever talk to 3 online?: | yea | | What about 2?: | sometimes | | Does 10 smell bad?: | um yes | | Does 1 smell nice?: | oh yes | | Are 1 and 8 friends?: | yes they are | Take this survey | Find more surveys
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